Monday, March 28, 2011

EUREKA

Fuck yes! I have discovered one of the emotional lynch pins of AOTLITW. As always, now that I've figured it out, it seems so incredibly obvious that I can't believe it took me this long. Nick never loved Brenda, and married her anyway. What he thought was "love" was really something else. Maybe infatuation, or possessiveness, or guilt. But not true, healthy, uplifting love.



This is his big, terrible secret. But when did he realize that he didn't love her? Does he already know, or does he figure it out over the course of the film (answer: the second one)?

When is he forced to admit, to himself or to others, that he didn't really love her? And if not, did he put her through their brief, damaging marriage for nothing?

Why did they get married in the first place? Does Nick learn "the meaning of love"? or just what it is not?

progress...

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Page one rewrites

Fuck you, I'm doing page one rewrites of AOTLITW.

Friday, March 18, 2011

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I really, really wanted to send out All Of The Love In The World to my writer/producer in LA. I really, really wish it was ready. I really, really wish that everyone's favorite advice for writers was not "Never send anything out until it is as good as you can make it".

AOTLITW is not done. It's not even "done enough". Susan informed me that the protagonist does not have a clear arc. She is right. The arc that I have been explaining to everybody is false. I don't believe it, and it is not evident anywhere in the script. I am a bullshitter.

Now, I have to figure out Nick's REAL story. It is not about him "coming to terms with his responsibility for Brenda's death", because that is a) not really filmable and b) not totally interesting.

This should be a story about how Nick is forced to confront his former life so that he can close that chapter and move on. It's a sort of coming-of-age story.

So 1) what is Nick moving towards? 2) why does Nick need to confront his unresolved "former life"? What has he not learned? Done? Resolved? 3) Why did this tragedy have to happen NOW?



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Monday, March 7, 2011

Dream project.

No, literally, I had a dream where I came up with an idea for a crime thriller. It was about an art restorer who also laundered money for the mob. For some reason he looses 100,000 dollars, and then tricks a bunch of people, and then gets away with a bunch of money. FUCK, I HATE HAVING GOOD IDEAS IN MY DREAMS BECAUSE I ALWAYS FORGET THEM! I know there was a female love interest, of course, but she also ended up being a femme fatale, so he tricked her too.

Then, in my next dream, I was convinced I was ripping off a movie starring Vince Vaughn and Cameron Diaz and ran around borders trying to find information on the movie.

Whatever: the basic idea is good, and I'll keep it in the back of my mind.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

I have sent out the newest draft of AOTLITW to two readers.

And now I wait.

And wait.

And wait.

I don't have anything to DO until they get back to me with notes. There is nothing I feel I have to work on. And after doing NOTHING (almost literally) for the last week other than write this motherfucker and watch movies, I am having a bit of a "crisis of purpose".

At least I have an entire treatment (save for the details of the last scene) for River Of Silence. I can jump right into that as soon as possible. Also, that one won't require as much heavy duty work as Bullet For My Best friend, so I could conceivably have TWO COMPLETED SCRIPTS by spring.